Tell Me

“Tell me something, that you never ever told anyone.”

She looked at him, surprised. She smiled and let a sigh. “Something like a secret?”

“Yes, something like that.” He smiled at her, knowing that she’s quite challenged with his request.

“Something like that? That’s exactly a secret…”

“No, it’s different. Let me rephrase it, tell me something that you never tell anyone exactly but it’s obvious.”

“So, you want me to admit something.”

“Yeah.” And he smiled. A smile that could take anyone’s heart away.

“Okay, I’ll tell you something. But, you have to promise me that you won’t tell anyone else. It’s going to be our secret.” As she say it, she couldn’t help but laugh. And, honestly, she didn’t know why. In that moment, all she knew was she should feel nervous, but then, she felt so happy.

“Deal.” He gave her a grin.

“You’re my first love.” And she smiled. After sometime, she started to feel nervous. He just looked at her straight in her deep set eyes, deciphering if she’s telling the truth.

He broke from their interminable gaze. He looked down and said, “I thought I am not the first one.” Then, he looked at her dearly.

She felt her blood rushed into her cheeks, so she looked down.

“Hey, thank you.” His voice was full of amazement and wonder. Anyone could fell his surprise, as well as his happiness. She tilted her head to meet his eyes.

She smiled knowing that he openly accepted her feelings. She thought, if this would still be an unrequited love after this, it didn’t bother me, because I knew, that I finally became true to the most important person in my life.

He drove her home. It was a silent journey no one dared to talk about what happened earlier. However, the silence they shared don’t have any tension or negativity, it embodies contentment.

As he walked her to the door, he suddenly held her hand which surprised her. They stood in the front door while looking intently into each other’s eyes. “I love you, too.”

The sound of his voice could touch anyone’s heart and his sincerity could give infinite warmth of love. 

A tear escaped her eyes and she knew that her life is about to change.

For Starters!

First and foremost, I’d like to say that this isn’t my very first blog and that I have deleted several blogs because I felt it’s too random or nonsensical or it’s really not good enough and so nobody will ever read it. Then, why am I starting another blog? It’s because my thoughts are already countless and if I will not write anything I think I’ll lost my sanity. My mind is already overloaded with factual information, thus, I don’t think it can handle vast thoughts about all things under the sun which are products of all my ideals, opinions and reactions.

Also, I feel that my heart and mind is going to burst due to uncontrollable overthinking and overanalyzing of things. Believe it or not, if I ever watch, listen or read something, everything about it stays with me for days or weeks, and the most, months. It may be a character’s emotions, dreams or even choice of words. The general theme or feeling of anything can easily sink in to me, as though I am living in the fictional world with the book’s characters and experiencing every pain, happiness, anger and suffering they were into, or I am the writer-composer of a song proclaiming my deepest emotions through a short lyrical poem matched with a melody that can touch anyone’s heart, as if I am interacting in a world I am the only one who knew it exist.

I really wished to finally settle down with one blog that will last for years, hopefully. It’s because it is really a huge trouble to blog for some time, then stop, and then blog again after several months, and finally, deleting it because my overly perfectionist self thinks that it isn’t worth continuing and it’s better to just start a new one. Hence, I’ll start a new one and the same thing happens again. Oh, history really repeats itself. Honestly, it’s mind battering.

Since, this time I am too desperate to SHOUT everything because I want the WORLD to know what’s going on in my peculiar mind. Not because I am too proud of myself and that the world should know my ideas, but I guess, why should I waste my time writing a lot of things that nobody can even have a glimpse of it? It’s such a waste to keep something that other people can read (hopefully!) and maybe can INSPIRE and give them HOPE, right?

With all my hopes and inspirations, I wished and prayed that this blog will finally work. May God be with me! He knew that I wanted to be a writer; this might be my stepping stone. :)