For Starters!

First and foremost, I’d like to say that this isn’t my very first blog and that I have deleted several blogs because I felt it’s too random or nonsensical or it’s really not good enough and so nobody will ever read it. Then, why am I starting another blog? It’s because my thoughts are already countless and if I will not write anything I think I’ll lost my sanity. My mind is already overloaded with factual information, thus, I don’t think it can handle vast thoughts about all things under the sun which are products of all my ideals, opinions and reactions.

Also, I feel that my heart and mind is going to burst due to uncontrollable overthinking and overanalyzing of things. Believe it or not, if I ever watch, listen or read something, everything about it stays with me for days or weeks, and the most, months. It may be a character’s emotions, dreams or even choice of words. The general theme or feeling of anything can easily sink in to me, as though I am living in the fictional world with the book’s characters and experiencing every pain, happiness, anger and suffering they were into, or I am the writer-composer of a song proclaiming my deepest emotions through a short lyrical poem matched with a melody that can touch anyone’s heart, as if I am interacting in a world I am the only one who knew it exist.

I really wished to finally settle down with one blog that will last for years, hopefully. It’s because it is really a huge trouble to blog for some time, then stop, and then blog again after several months, and finally, deleting it because my overly perfectionist self thinks that it isn’t worth continuing and it’s better to just start a new one. Hence, I’ll start a new one and the same thing happens again. Oh, history really repeats itself. Honestly, it’s mind battering.

Since, this time I am too desperate to SHOUT everything because I want the WORLD to know what’s going on in my peculiar mind. Not because I am too proud of myself and that the world should know my ideas, but I guess, why should I waste my time writing a lot of things that nobody can even have a glimpse of it? It’s such a waste to keep something that other people can read (hopefully!) and maybe can INSPIRE and give them HOPE, right?

With all my hopes and inspirations, I wished and prayed that this blog will finally work. May God be with me! He knew that I wanted to be a writer; this might be my stepping stone. :)